The New year is already here and even before I finished penning down my resolutions,a month has already passed!
I know, probably it's too late for self introspection according to the Universal timeline.But as they say,the queen always arrives late,right?(Okay,sorry.You could smile atleast for what it is worth?)
Anyway, straight to the point.
In recent self introspection ( read as subtle-but-on-the-verge-of-turning-harsh revelations/ comments from my people on a frequent basis),I have come to realize that in the course of all the drama (self created, obviously.Sorry, you win no brownie points!) last year had to offer, I have lost track to a certain extent of few people who are pretty close to me. I have come to a conclusion that these few gems in my life are still sticking around because of their kind hearts and not because of me(Ouch!).
Last year,my new year made sense.I was introduced to a new city,new people (my current survival tools) and few life lessons. Here,I would shed light on one of those lessons.
This is an apology and a promise to all those who are still in my life out of choice and only want the best of the best for me.
More often than not,we get stuck in our daily routines,our day jobs, dutiful family activities and the never ending to do lists.Sooner than we can imagine,weekends depart and Monday blues arrive.In this rat race of making ourselves visible in front of our bosses and racking our brains for organizational goals,there is hardly any time left for our personal goals.And in my case,whatever time I do get,I spend it thinking about a change.A dramatic change that will take me to this fairyland where Mondays are just as beautiful as my favorite color blue! I was trying to be so close to myself that I became too distant from many others.
I do not say,self love is not needed.I would rather say,it is the most essential thing to pursue today to remain a little sane in this chaotic world. But even if you don't realize,there are people out there who want to help you,who want to be there when you are stuck in your rut.I am just saying,do not ignore their existence completely.Is that too much to ask for,for all the love they shower? They just want to be the antidote of everything else happening in your life and give you the cheer you need to hear, the hand you need,the shoulder to cry,the reason to smile and survive whatever you are going through.
Don't make them so distant from you that the distance becomes too far to build a bridge. Why wither away separately when you can blossom together?
I know I need not jot down tips to rekindle your relationships,no matter the kind.We all know what needs to be done.But just like everything else,we procastinate. Lets not do that this time? For all we know,life will happen the way it wants to,no matter what we plan.Will some love hurt you?Rather,it would give you something exactly what you need.Few drinks to remind you to take it easy or the life -changing-philosophical-talks which only your friends are certified to give you!
This is a shout out to all my Mumbai peeps who are more like family than friends. I never knew I would turn out to be this person thanks to the games my mind plays with me. This is to all those who stayed out of choice.(Yes I can't stop repeating, because you people are the love I am skeptical whether I actually deserve!) This is to all those who believe in me more than I do right now.
I apologise for going far than necessary. I promise to stay,just like you all did.
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